[WORK_RECORD] - The Refcards-Project. Sunday, May 31, 2026 / 11h34.
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2026-06-07 05:37:13
- After I left off in yesterday's antilog, I maintained the same oscillatory pattern and rhythm as usual in the workspace; I took tons of important notes on Refcards, printed research + my own previous antilogs to situate/orient myself in my workday and catch any errors in the text itself; I went for a second walk, not a long one; later on, I met with my main collaborator K. for a video call of just over an hour, recorded a new video presentation, read a little, and went to bed;
- I was worried at one point yesterday that I was unable to finish the day's work within the confines of the workday, but found that in the end I was able, though sometimes I come close to getting behind in my work; losing track of my "position", if you will, within the laboratory, is something I try to avoid, my orientation, but really, truth be told, I lose my bearings constantly; the thing is, I immediately find myself again in a powerful, sudden realization; the workspace was designed for this, to always find the thread when I am lost; it all comes back down to the configuration of the workspace and the exposed surface; plus, the archives were designed with findability in mind; I call it The Art of The Found;
- I also recorded several audio notes while outdoors "in the field" yesterday and some videos I ́posted on Instagram and threads; about finding myself again in the workspace, the workspace is also designed for serendipitous discovery; it's the main reason I kept an archive of all my artwork and research in the first place; I'm always finding what I call "prior art", always the perfect piece at precisely the right moment; yesterday I was looking at some pages I wrote on the typewriter in November, 2009, and had the sudden realization that I've been working formally on my workspace theory at least since then, by reading documents I didn't even remember I had written; it consolidated and strengthened my belief that I am not in fact crazy, that I have a rigorous and comprehensive, experimental design workflow management methodology that works seamlessly and that is perfectly adapted to the kind of interdisciplinary art-research work that I've been doing for decades, in The Art Operation at The Historiotheque;
- Right now I'm finishing my morning coffee and reviewing the work I did yesterday + also reviewing the last week's worth of work, as part of my weekly and monthly retrospectives; I also do "seasonal" retrospectives, biannual, yearly, and ones for various phases of my life and career; I am realizing how far I've come over the years, what amazing progress has been made;
- As continuously go in and out of the archives, I realize how much progress I've made, how prolifuc I was, but also had some memories of when being critized extremely harshly in my career as an artist; people didn't understand what I was doing, told me that my work was incoherent; It's alright, everyone's entitled to their opinions;
- I've also had people write graffiti on my artwork or otherwise deface it, other works were stolen, and entire collections were destroyed either by "iconoclasts" I guess you could call them, or else water damage; other work, especially all my works in larger formats, had to be abandoned by the side of the road because I couldn't fit them in the truck I had rented for moving my art studio to another location;
- I've lost so much work, that has to be the reason I spent so much time refining and re-refining my archival work, my work methodologies in general, so that that never happens again, because if I am being frank, it was quite hurtful, to lose all of that stuff, and to be called incoherent and what have you;
- I'm now going to print out and review these notes and then maybe make some music on the computer - with headphones on - or else do research, maybe do some reading of one of the many books I have presently "on the go"; I've been trying to finish A Writer's Diary by Dostoevsky, which is a masterpiece unlike most of his writings; it almost reads like a blog, with rather long entries; I recently ordered a book of writings by Erik Satie and am really looking forward to reading that; Satie is probably my favorite composer of all time; he really speaks to me as a composer, but also as a general fan of great music; he's also had a huge influence on my piano composition; I often try to emulate his complex harmonies when I improvize on the piano; I'm actually recording piano and organ compositions these days, every week I try to record a few pieces as part of my Seasons of The Heart Project, the year-long, secular, liturgical song cycle that I've been working on for many years; there seems to be something about the practice of musical composition that is hard to describe sometimes; it takes so much discipline and hard work; sometimes I think it's even worse than an internal martial art; you have to be so solid, and it requires so much patience and perseverance, stamina, strength, everything else you can think of, of that nature and in that general vein; anyway I need to print this out and review it immediately so I know in what direction I want to take today's work; Stay tuned...
2026-06-07 11:55:10
- I ended up doing some more research, printing it out, reading it, highlighting it, writing roughly 7 new Refcards on my workspace theory and then went for a short walk where I recorded the church bells; I also meditated and prayed at my mom's grave, as I do every morning during my morning constitutional; I also read from a book by Christine Buci-Glucksmann, called Baroque Reason, which treats of Baudelaire and Benjamin in many ways, and I must say is one of my favorite books of recent years; Every year I go back to the library and take it out and read it, just for the sheer pleasure of reading the masterful, amazing, hypnotizing prose of Christine Buci-Glucksmann;
- I also listened to several old tracks, old songs for guitar and voice that I recorded in the 2001-2004 period, when I lived in the NDG borough of Montreal, Quebec, with my then-girlfriend; I think that I was really close to my emotions in that period, though I happened to be suffering a great deal, but I was definitely "in-touch" in a way that I have rarely been after about 2007-2008 when I had a "rough patch"let's call it; it wasn't just that, I had been "riding the waves of history" if I can call it that, for many years, being really close to the mountainous terrain of modern history, riding the wave; I was exhausted, and it's where I learned to make the art-research practice impersonal; I was just trying to say that it's hard to write and record music if you aren't entirely "in-touch", to reuse the expression;
- I mentioned the harsh criticism I've received as an artist; the reason I feel comfortable talking about interpersonal conflicts such as these, as well as the water damage to my art collections, the graffiti, the outright destruction of collections and pieces, and art theft as well, is that it fits in with the research I've been doing for decades on what I call "historiopathies" or "historical pathologies"; I can't get into it right now because it's a huge topic that requires a lot of careful interpretation and many systematically meticulous explanations, but in short, trauma and grief are some of the many things that can get inherited from one generation to the next, and the role of the arts & culture, in my view, is always the preservation of the greatest things humanity has to offer, a process, and project I call The Faithful Transmission of The Cultural Treasure Across Generations; to do justice to this pan-millennial civilizational process, one at times has to get into the nitty-gritty of things, the ugly side of history; while I don't believe in the politicization of art, and will never get political publicly as an artist or as an individual person, if one wants to do justice to the faithful transmission I just mentioned, one has to look at the discontinuities in said transmission, and what that entails, what dark consequences can come of that; so trauma must be addressed at some point; more on this later (it must be done with the highest grade of care and concern, however, and hopefully some expertise in the matter, or people could get hurt; I always try to remind people that this kind of work CAN cause people to become decompensated or else disorganized, and believe me, nobody wants that, but most people never think of these types of risks & liabilities; people just think "Art is free; everything is possible!");
- To come back to the main topic, I plan on writing a bunch of new songs, finishing my DAYBREAK album from a few years ago; I'm also continually writing, recording, and publishing new songs for my Seasons of The Heart Project, as well as new tracks for my Symphonie du Vieux Village or Symphony of The Old Village; I also just do ambient, experimental sound design on the side as it is a passion of mine; I know a lot of people will have trouble understanding what I do; so long as it doesn't cause you to not have compassion and empathy for me as a person, an individual; I find that often people lack comprehension, they have a comprehension problem, and they seemingly project it on others in some strange way, precisely calling you strange when really it is their experience in their minds and souls that is strange, the strangeness of incomprehension; so if you don't understand, either keep it to yourself or let me know, and I will take the time to answer any questions, but please don't dismiss my entire existence for your lack of comprehension; I don't like having to say such things, but it's really annoying, especially after 30 years of practice, when people are condescending or out right persecutory; anyway, it needed to be said, I will go onto greener pastures;
- I recorded a new piece and am putting it online, called Symphonie du Vieux Village: Cloches Matinales (or Symphony of The Old Village: Morning Bells); as always, I practice continuous review and so I have thoroughly reviewed my work from earlier this morning, and had already reviewed yesterday's work after I woke up, as well as reviewing the work of the last week, since we are Sunday after all and at the start of a new week; I did a comprehensive review of the month of May, 2026, over the last couple of days; now I think I'm taking the rest of the day to catch up on my reading, as I've been so busy of late logging and documenting everything that I never really got around to doing much of the reading I absolutely need to do to keep my sanity; or else the hyperreflexivity can be poisonous!
- I am sharing the piece here for the first time, the Symphonie du Vieux Village: Cloches Matinales:
2026-06-07 16:37:53
- I actually ended up going back out for a walk, then I wrote and recorded a new song for my DAYBREAK album, something I've been working on for a while; here it is, it's called Quiet Clockwork:
- I also recorded and published a new video presentation last night, which I had been trying to get around to doing for a couple of days; here it is, it's called WHAT IS THE ARCHIVES-PROJECT? (PART TWO):
- I went for another walk, to the library just now, to bring back a couple of books I had finished reading; I kept them around a little longer than usual in case I needed to refer back to them; I also ended up doing my "back-and-forth" dialectical and dialogical method between the main desk and my computer terminals, printing out research, reading it, highlighting it, taking notes, writing refcards, carrying the refcards from the main desk to the computer terminal, printing out more research, writing logs and documentation on the computer, taking the printed materials to the main desk, and the process just starts back up again, ad infinitum;


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